Lionheart

Good Riddance

2010-10-02T04:52:00.000-07:00

This is the end of the line. I'm done. Goodbye. I'm Gone. This part of my life is dead now.

two twenty two

2010-06-11T16:03:00.000-07:00

Well its the time of the year again. getting older.getting wiser.whatever.sucky part about it? lost my phone.for fuck sake! i just got credits and its useless now.fuck the free calls eh maxis? having hard time looking for numbers and contacts now. terrible asthma attack? rad innit? having to take asthma puffers every time the songs finished. other than that? having a great weekend with the Vampirates from Adelaide. Great dudes. thanks for the shirt Carradean. Last night's show was sick. Good times good friends. Lets make this year a memorable one eh?

I'm back

2010-04-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

Hi to all the readers, if there is any. It's been really a long time since i last post something here. the reasons are? i don't even know the reasons. probably I've come to a period that i need to sort personal things that i deal on my own or even i found there's no point in writing anymore. Anyways..Life is too short to waste away. Why did i just realize that now? Well my life has not reach its best of times this year.but now I'm trying to get myself back on track. There's so much to do but there's so little time. I'll get my life back. There's a lot things that i need to sort out with myself. Well i hope the path will be clear for me now as I'm sick of disappointments and let downs of my own cost.I'll get my life back.A promise i made to myself.

falling further forever

2010-04-26T10:20:00.000-07:00

This is a lyric to the song that i wrote for my new band Collages. This one here is about how i fell,stumble, deep down to the point that i could never imagine and how i struggle to get up but i kept failing myself and everyone around me. too much let downs. too much regrets. this song is just a reminder of how it's like to fall and how i struggle to rise again.

I glanced. Myself through the glass

All I can see is my own haunting reflection

I don’t know what I’ve become

I don’t know what I’ve turned to

All I know is that I’m sinking into the ocean

The ocean of my own apathy

The hole that I dug for me...

I’M SINKING UNDER!

I'm sinking lower than I would ever imagine

Trying to hold on to what's left of my beliefs

The chances thrown, these moments I drifted

Imprisoned in failure, I long for release

This world is dead to my eyes, SET ME FREE!

This love is dead to my life

I thought of reaching out,

The hands of failure has dragged me to the depths

I’m drowning under

Let the emotions run deep.

I’m falling forever

To the depths of the sinking ship

No hands could save me

I'm falling down forever.

The misery, the ignorance

This life was once wasted

On tombs that I’ve painted

I tried to seek salvation

To rise from the ruins

Instead I end up drowning

In oceans of hopes fall

in 2009.

2009-12-30T20:53:00.000-08:00

Well today's the last day for 2009.i figured i write something about what i go through this year be it good or bad times.Overall i could say that 2009 has been an alright year but it has a bitter end.

in 2009

I met tonnes of bands like misery signals,parkway drive, have heart,etc
I had a car accident in my campus
I learned a lot of new things
I started to fall apart with my friends
I developed a minor split personality
I started a new project band
I had many bruises because of skateboarding
I had a stitched chin
I lost my guitar at the have heart show
I bought a new guitar
I thought i had found love, instead i was heartbroken
I made new friends
I made a new extended family member.
I started flunking in my studies
I started to sink further than i was before
I started losing myself in ways that i could imagine
I accidentally ran over a cat.
I started to fall out with a friend who i was friends with for nearly 7 years now
I started to look more ill
I started to suffer from my own depression
I started to think that im losing it
I started to lose trust in people
I reconnected with some people in the past
I thought about death a lot
I argued again with my Dad
I feel leftout hanging out with the usual guys
I'm patching things up with the family.

so im moving on from 2009 but ill savor the good memories.hello 2010, i wish you treat me well this year.

Letters to god

2009-11-26T11:30:00.000-08:00

caught off guard
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take this one lifetime

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go

Falling

2009-11-26T10:51:00.000-08:00

I'm sinking lower than i would ever imagine
trying to hold on to what's left of what i believe
I tried to seek salvation
Instead I drown in my own pool of confusion
So grab my hands now and lead me out
before i fall even further into this depth of failure
Please God help me,
Cause I don't know what happened
or what I've become.
All i know is that I'm sinking
into this sea of misery.
No more trusting, just forgiving.

Rites of spring

2009-11-26T10:37:00.000-08:00

I was locked all day in the summer heat
In a small brown house in Suburban Street
With a skateboard and my shit guitar
I'd dream all day that they would get me far
The summers gone, the years have passed
My friends have changed, a few did last
The smallest dreams got pushed aside
The largest ones that changed my life

If I had a chance for another try
I wouldn’t change a thing
It's made me all of who I am inside
And if I could thank god
That I am here, and that I am alive
And everyday I wake
I tell myself a little harmless lie
The whole wide world is mine

Random Thoughts

2009-11-26T10:29:00.000-08:00

Herm..what can i say.so many things have happened.time flies by so fast and its nearly the end of the year now. I could see that my life is somewhat making a turn now. things have gotten worse these days hell i dont even know what to say or do anymore. It seems like the ride im taking in my life now is crashing down real bad. Sometimes i give up hope and feel like disappearing but somehow i still feel that this i gotta face this shit. I guess this is life whether i like it or not i have to face it alone.

a great way to end the week

2009-09-12T02:21:00.000-07:00

its been so ages since my last entry,herm... what can i say.probably ive grown tired of writing things that occurs in my life but since this week was something special i thought id write something.let's see on 9/9/9 i accidentally drove over a cat which i didn't know apparently to be under my tyre.I feel seriously guilty :( not only because i love animals but i also i was shocked due to that incident. i wanted to bury it but it was gone when i came back from class.i am seriously sorry.i wish i could turn back the time.The next day, everything was going well, i finally went for a fast-breaking session with ex house mate Louis and sent him home back to his brother's house. That night, i waited for the guys to message me for the new band rehearsals.but i guess it was canceled since no one responded.Argh! damn phone credits.so i decided to go skating since Arie messaged me. Its been really ages since we skate at the park. Met up with a few friends at the park and just decided to skate for hours until a tragedy happens. As i was sliding down from the cement platform into the bowl i collided with another dude in resulting to a serious bail. my deck collided with the Bunkface dude's deck and i was thrown off hitting my chin on the ground and grazing it on the cement.As i opened my eyes to this unbearable pain, i noticed that blood was gushing out my face dripping to the ground.I spat to see if it were my lips but only saliva that came out.then i heard someone saying that my chin was ripped.The dude who i collided with apologized and brought me to aid.he offered water to drink and to wash the blood, so i did. i took of my shirt and head straight to the clinic. Arie rushed me to the nearby clinic with some friends.i had a face towel that i wrapped on the bottom part of my face to stop more blood from coming out. as i came in few complications happened, the doctor said that my wounds were deep.so we rushed to the hospital in Klang. We went in and waited for hours since its a government hospital.how effecient.lol. It was finally my turn, i went in told the doctor what happened.she purposedly stuck her finger in my wound to see how deep it was.i was in agonizing pain.F***!.blood was dripping out i took the towel and dabbed it.so i went for an X ray check to see if my jaws were dislocated.Thank god it wasnt. I then got a few injections on my body before the procedure.Later on i was sent to this surgery department to sew my chin.i even managed to take few pictures during my surgery.lol.it was gory.they had given me few local anaesthetics( i dont know how to spell this) injections on my chin.goddamn it was painful.they sew my chin and i felt as if i was an experiment to them or Frankenstein even.haha.i bared the pain for a moment. this is the first time ive gotten such injury.after all that was done. we went back skating at the park :P.my jaws were pretty swollen so its kinda hard to bite or chew on foods but thank god im still alive :) this is the kind of thing you never expected to happen one week before Eid festival.lol. ill upload some pictures when i transfer it from my mobile.

Empty

2009-08-17T07:28:00.001-07:00

I seriously have nothing to talk about these days.lol.it's not that i've been doing nothing its just that im not bothered to write much these days.well,hope the mood will all come again soon :)

hannah hold on

2009-07-26T22:06:00.000-07:00

I never asked to be sorry
If its over its over for sure
I don't regret that I didn't want to
Remember what all this was for

So this is all we can do
What news is in store
How come starting over
Would be frowned on anymore

Hannah hold on
Hannah hold on
Its all been said
Its all been done

I never witnessed bitter like this
I think i've been shot in cold blood
You won't admit it and I won't be around
Just so I hear the applause

This isn't all we can do
When in doubt should move on
No need to sort it all out
By the time you read this i'll be gone

shatters

2009-07-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

today it stroke..all nightmares are coming true..all those paranoias was actually an epiphany to me. i guess those insecure hauntings were actually a call for this.all those nights of not sleeping well.and i was shattered, i was broken, i was left behind....i was left behind... toyed,broken and obsolete..lied to...betrayed..fading away

This chapter so far..

2009-07-18T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hermm its been two weeks since my last entry.it's not that i dont want to write.but i am just preoccupied at times and sometimes so many things have passed that i forgot to write one single entry.lol.anyways, I went to see her at her place in JB yesterday.started the trip on friday night along with my housemate blur and his gf diba.the trip was alright.it wasnt too tiring.when i arrived there.called up this bloke.he offered for a place to stay in his guesthouse.friendly.lol.the next day went to pick her up.was lost trying to find our way tho but then i remembered it again.lol.went out for lunch with her, went to watch public enemies with her and her friends, had dinner with her and sent her back home. I also went home last night.3 hours of driving.it wasnt so tiring too on the way back.Btw theres a Carpathian show today in MCPA.i'll be leaving soon to see them perform. Kenet told me to pick them up from LCCT but i called him and he's not picking up either.Those australian guys are whack.especially martin tho.lol.picked them up last monday and hang around with them in putrajaya.

it's been a while.

2009-07-08T22:08:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since i wrote my last entry.Things have been good at the moment. I didnt do much tho but it seems i spent my time doing the stuff i usually do with friends and family.College is alright, but im flunking on one subject tho.its all because my lack of attendance as usual.damnit.im trying to cut that behaviour for good.Last two weeks i spend time with my brother and his friend walking around in sg.actually went for a shopping trip.lol.Just of last week i went to JB to meet someone and also i had to session guitars for burnout on last sunday.It was great.the trip was fun and worthwile.it's the first time i ever drive alone there and go back on my own too.lol.well,im still glad be alive today.things are making a good turn for me so far.

New age,new beginnings.

2009-06-12T11:38:00.001-07:00

So i reached my legal age yesterday on june 12th. Finally im 21.lol.It was awesome tho this year.I never expected that i would be this satisfied.Started the morning on 00:00 hours at some mamak stall, was hangin out having my really late dinner and suddenly i received a phone call from momo.she wished me happy birthday in japanese.wth.but i was grateful.lol. A few more friends called in or texted me.My housemate Blur even called and sang happy birthday with his gf.haha.ill definitely remember that one bro.lol. Later on Andrew called, asked me to come over his place.we hung out for a bit. It was 1.30 am and i had to go for a jamm session with han,penyu and wan.did our own numbers.lol.i reckon it was like one of the best jamming session i ever had. i dont know why but it felt euphoric.lol.after that i hung out with them until 5 or 6 in the morning and went home for sleep.I woke up later on at 9 or 10 am and went online for a while getting text messages,phone calls, comments on fb and myspace.thanks guys.i really do appreciate it. In the afternoon my brother brought me to KL and bought me a shirt.Arie and Syasha bought me a wallet.My parents gave me some cash to spend on.Hermm i guess i never really get gifts on my bday so i was rather satisfied.Everything felt great :) I even called some people on my phone list because i have free voice calls but i dont really know who to call or talk to. In the evening about 9 , i went for a dinner with my mom and sis outside. Later on, arie texted me to go skating at sect 13 in Shah Alam. So i ended the day with some skateboarding, it was awesome. I got to do a new a trick called "rock n roll".lol. Hungout with Alien and Arie there to wrap things up.All i can say it was a satisfying day for me and i would like to thank my friends and acquaintances for wishing me :)

New Semester,new beginning

2009-06-04T03:46:00.000-07:00

Well i just started class on monday,everything is good as usual.A fresh start for me this sem.Classes are only on Monday till Wednesday.Me and a few friends are selling t shirts for the faculty.This is the first time i ever designed for my faculty.Progress is great.Loads of respond from the kids.This time i will get even back with my pointer..lol. I've not been feeling well these days.I feel groggy and dizzy everyday.took panadols and painkillers but it hardly works.i sure do hope that i will get well soon enough.

Dumbshit started happening.

2009-05-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

Just as i thought i already lost a guitar last week,now came this, i dont know how i finally managed to drop my pointer a lot on my exam results.i got an embarrasing 2.91 for my gpa and 3.15 for my Cgpa.This is dumb.this shit is dumb.how could i possibly get a D for my instructional communication subject.Now im regretting things.Im saying things beginning with I shouldve .I shouldve attended a whole lot more of classes, i shouldve studied instead of lazying around.i shouldve done more assignments,i shouldve been myself! This shit is just dumb and unacceptable. I'll make sure i'll get back in the game for the upcoming 3 sems. I dont wanna graduate with shit results

Goodbye

2009-05-19T05:55:00.000-07:00

Goodbye to my dearest friend,companion,axe,instrument. Epiphone Les Paul, i hope you rest in peace in your hardcase coffin along with your friend digitech grunge pedal.so long.thanks for serving me all this while.youve been a great guitar to me.i'll always remember you.

Facebook

2009-05-18T10:36:00.001-07:00

I was online and randomly chatting with kei yasui from Have Heart

Nik:hey dude

Kei:yo whats up man

Nik:ill upload the videos soon enough yo

Kei:awesome let me know when you do

Nik:k man.btw i lost my guitar at your show fuck it man..left it backstage someone mustve taken it

Kei:damnnn.thats happeend to me before

Nik:i know...its really sad.i lost my fav Epiphone les paul along with its hardcase and my digitech grunge effect pedal

Kei:damn dude

Nik:hey hows singapore?

Kei:singapore was amazing

Nik:told ya.hahaha.sorry i didnt get a chance to do the interview with you the other day

Kei:oh its cool man

Nik:i managed with pat and champ and then ryan hudon and briggs came along.cool2

Kei:its cool, i was sick anyway

Nik:hey it was super fun to have you guys down here

Kei:not feeling very good

Nik:oh could tell your face was a bit pale.that day.lol.hows aussie?awesome i presume?

Kei:yes.its very similar to america

Nik:lol.nice then.wheres pat,champ and the rest?

Kei:sleeping

Nik:cool.arent u sleepy yet?after all those shows

Kei:yeah pretty tired

Nik:hahaha i would guess.if its me id probably fainted or something.everyday playing shows.lol.

Kei:haha yeah

Kei: alright man, im going to bed, later

Nik:ok mann.keep in touch.send my regards to the rest

Have Heart show 16/5/09

2009-05-16T20:39:00.000-07:00

This show is kind of fun yet bitter for me.I borrowed my brother's dv cam to record the live show and ofcourse Have heart's set.The show kicked off about 3pm.The first band for the show is Ana four craig.they did alright.i didnt really know any of their songs tho.After that was Elegy.Elegy had this great energy performance in their set.as usual they did a cover of zombie autopilot from Unearth.They were'nt half bad. The next up was Escape, now this band has got a real great live energy on stage.The crowds was singing along to the songs.I took videos of some of their set.They did a cover of Bane's swan song.i took the melodic vocal part but the mic wasnt on.damn, made a fool of myself again.lol.

Next up was Break Even from Australia.This band was a fun and energetic band.they did some numbers like run for your life.theyre awesome.Avalon's whisper and Restraint was next, although i didnt had the chance to checkout their performance but im sure they did great as always.Burgerkill was after that, their set was energetic and soul, it was a metalhead set on a hardcore show it was fucking awesome.they played Atur aku and that song was great as ever.

The next up was Kids on the Move.They have just released their full length album entitled Changes. They did an awesome set,amazing performances and showmanship and the crowd was going wild, everyone was stage diving,moshing on the stage, infact some of the kids were on the stage going crazy like hell.i enjoyed it pretty much.Kudos to them

The final set of the day comes from the legendary Hardcore band from Boston,massachusettes. Have Heart finally took over the night.It's Pat flynn's world and everyone was living in it.hahaha.
The kids was going crazy when they got on stage, especially when Pat flynn did. They are using this guy called Champ on drums,he's a drummer for a band called Foundation from Atlanta. Apparently Shawn Costa was playing Verse's last show in the states.They was amazing awesome.Finally i got to meet one of the band that is legendary to me. i couldnt believe it, have heart was infront of me performing. They did numbers like Something more than ink,armed with a mind, lionheart, boston, hardbark on the family tree and more. The kids was wayyy crazy they was stage diving,singing a long side with pat flynn, i could see that pat flynn was really exhausted and all the kids wanted to sing along with him and grabbing his neck.lol.After the show was ever, i managed to chat quite a lot with the guys from HH.They was friendly as ever, as if we were old friends.hahaha.I chatted a lot with ryan hudon and champ(i think that was his name) who was replacing shawn costa on this tour.they were really nice we talked about lot of stuff from straight edge and stuff or even about what they think of the asian tour.They were pretty awesome.Pat flynn was a real nice guy.I even did a small interview with those guys. Ill post it on soon enough. I even exchanged email with Ryan Hudon and Champ Hammett.

After that i drove Joe home.when i arrived in Shah Alam i just got to realize that my guitar was missing.fuck it!.i thought my friend had it.and he thought that i had it.it was a clear miscommunication.the guitar was at the backstage of the show and i didnt realize it.i was too busy talking to Have Heart.Damn it was devastating.I sure hope i'll get it back.

Looking for Missing Guitar!

2009-05-16T10:54:00.000-07:00

I lost my guitar at the have heart show in MCPA today on 16th May 2009,apparently i left it backstage and forgot about it because i tought a friend had taken it:

Epiphone Les paul-black finish
A levy strap with holes
Epiphone Hardcase with random stickers
Digitech Grunge effect
a yellow coloured guitar cable

anyone who found it please,please,please contact me.
nik hanif-0176296737
:(

Dear Friend

2009-05-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

Dear Friend,

I do hope that you are alright now.I'm writing this to wish you good luck on your operation.
I hope that you'll live to see the day bro.I'll pray for your safety and well being. Try not to think so much about her man. I think its great if you relax and you smile a little. I couldnt imagine the pain you through physically and emotionally but i do know youre doing the right thing.Dont worry i'll help to ease your burden a bit because you've always been a good friend to me and help me out with a lot of shit that ive been through.I missed hanging out with you man and hope that you'll survive so that when you comeback we could hangout again like we used to.You've always been a friend and a brother to me.Hold on bro, i know you'll survive the pain.

in pain

2009-05-12T12:01:00.000-07:00

Im suffering from mouth ulcers for over a week now.damn.i couldnt speak properly or even eat properly without having to feel the pain in my mouth.it hurts really bad.Anyway ive been working with my brother this holiday doing videography.We're covering videos and photos for this company called Chulan Woodworks.We had to travel to this factory in Rawang on some days.It was alright.Felt like free money sometimes.lol.I havnt done much this semester break apart from sitting at home,go online or hangout with Rizan and Hazim.Oh btw,last week my pc was corrupted and some of the datas were lost.dammit!!!.but thank god most of the files were recovered.I've got more works to cover in the coming week. I cant wait for Have heart this weekend!

freeze the moment

2009-05-04T22:47:00.000-07:00

Have you ever loved someone so much,you'd give an arm for
not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
when they know they're you're heart
and you know you're their armour
and you will destroy anyone who would harm try to harm her

Updates updates

2009-04-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since my last entry.thats because ive been busy with my final exams.studying last minute not sleeping until my paper.damn it was tiring like fuck.Anyways ive got a new housemate now.He's called hafiz a.k.a joe, quite a nice guy.Has the same interests as me.I bid him welcome to our house.As of now, ive just finished my final exams and i am on holiday.Got shitload of stuff to do this term break and slightly cooling off from the pressure bullshit.well i guess this is growing up. I want to say goodluck for a friend who's battling a disease which i think might be brain cancer.I hope you survive bro.hold on to your faith to god.I wish you well.

something new

2009-04-13T08:28:00.000-07:00

I've been watching this new sitcom,well its not actually that new but ive just been watching it and i totally like it!.It started off with a narrative voice telling a series of story to his two children on how he met their mother. The guy Ted Mosby which is the lead character tells his two children how he lived his life in the past in pursue of finding his spouse. I personally like this character called Barney" which is played by Neil Patrick Harris because he's just humorous.The sitcom is just great!

Have Heart live in Malaysia!

2009-04-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

Again, i would quote.The band that made me want to stay hardcore, is finally coming to town next month!F*** im excited.

updates

2009-04-13T08:23:00.000-07:00

Final exams is next sunday.hermm i havent started revising yet.i'll get around to it this week.Last saturday, DT was supposed to have a show in Melaka but it got cancelled, so Rizan,Hazim and I went to the place anyways.The show was alright.Met some friends.Chill out with them until its 4am and i didnt realize it.Drove home that morning and arrived at 6am in puchong.Man, i was so sleepy along the way but i had to drive anyway.The week turned out alright for me :)

The letter R in Friends is overrated.

2009-04-08T01:57:00.000-07:00

Im on the verge of losing it
I dont need anyone to share this catastrophe that i'm in
I'm a man, i can stand on my own feet
I can see faces fading away now
The ones ive known for years
the ones that have been close with me
now are as apart as ever
what ever happened to forever.
what ever happened to having each other's back
what ever happened to the years we spent with each other
now i could really see our true colours
i dont know,maybe i'm just being paranoid
but i have never been wrong in this kind of shit
havent you wondered, we dont even talk to each other anymore at times
I tried my best, i tried giving effort to care about you people
but what i have in return is just bullshit
I just dont give a fuck anymore..

Consider this

2009-04-07T04:41:00.000-07:00

God im in such a stress. I just feel like disappearing. Disappear for six months or more. I wish im gone for the moment.I wish im not here. I wish im at another place, gone and untracable. Im just too depressed to go on sometimes and i dont even know why. Call me lunatic or crazy, i dont care. I just want to get away with all life's problem for now. Criticize me, talk shit or put me down. I just don't give a fuck anymore. One day i will leave this world.

I'm losing it!

2009-04-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

Final exams is less than two weeks but still i havnt solved my problems yet. I am stressed, aggrevated by the fact that i havent settled my debts with the financial department as a result of still not getting the exam slip.I still havent done my final assignment project.I still havent catch up on my studies. I am falling fast. I am slipping. I am flunking and the worst part is i cant hold myself together.arrrrrghhh!! i feel like im in self destruction mode. Faces have come and gone too. Things were not as they used to. Just when i need people around me they arent there. I feel like disappearing and fading away. This is just an introduction to harsh reality.fuck it!Somebody please give me a straight jacket, tie me up, throw me into a dark room and take the keys away.

random toughts

2009-04-06T11:36:00.000-07:00

me the disfigured bastard

Have Heart coming soon!

2009-04-06T09:59:00.000-07:00

One of the bands that made me wanna stay hardcore.One of my favourite band is finally coming here.

The week end story

2009-04-06T09:41:00.000-07:00

The last two days have been such a tiring day for me. I did a part time at this FnB company.I had to sell foods at a kiosk in the F1 Sepang Circuit.This is the first time i have to work at such place and the job was new to me.We started as early as 7 or 8 in the morning and finish at 7.00 pm in the evening.I was in charge of handling the foods in the kitchen.We had to sell hotdogs and beverages on our kiosks.Lol.a vegan selling hotdogs.nvm.The first day me,arie,louis,momo,suqon and kenet had left from S.alam to Sepang and arrived there at 10am.We parked our car and registered ourselves at the counter, took a set of work t shirts and went to our kiosks. I met some colleagues who were nice and hardworking.I worked hard that day tho and whoah it was a challenge.When rush hour comes we have to double our effort.The place was filled with customers who are willing to pay an expensive amount of price for an unreasonable set of food.Capitalists.I did have a chance to see a bit of the race.It was noisy like hell but thrilling. The second day was the same but the queue of the customers was hell as i worked at both departments; kitchen and the front counter.The cleaning part was tiring like crap and the payment was only 80 per day.it wasnt worth it so we made our own "profit".hahahaha(evil laugh).After the job was done,Kenet and i went to the jamiroquai after party.I sold some of the drinking water stock and made some quick bucks.hahaha.saw some familiar faces too.lol.The concert was nice but im not used to the different set of crowds.we waited to collect our payment until 11 or 12 if im not mistaken.All and all it was quite an experience.

The progress of life

2009-04-02T04:31:00.000-07:00

Louis and Adly had just moved out from our place in Sect 7,Shah alam.So theres only three of us left Arie,Me and Blur.My friend Iqbal is replacing louis and is going to be my new roomate.Final exams is just around the corner but still i havent studied a thing yet.Fees yet to be paid.i still got to clear my outstanding balance of 1k+.Now where the hell am i going to get such money.hermm ill be working tomorrow so that should cover some of the fees.Stress,stress, stress again.Things are yet to get harder for me.Damn.

DT's Singapore Show

2009-04-02T04:04:00.000-07:00

Dick Fuckin Tracy yo!
Misery Signals!

On the way home

Waiting for the bus

On our way to the venue

Me with Stuart Ross
Rizan and Tom

Me with Karl Schubach

Daryll Me and Rizan

Poster signed by misery signals

Its been awhile since my last post.As of now, im gonna post about my trip to singapore with Dick Tracy.We left from KL to JB on last Saturday morning at 3.00 am.We went there with two cars, mine and tom's.I drove first until senawang's RnR because i was to sleepy then to drive and later on Zam took over. After that i took over again at some other stop which i cant remember. So we arrived in JB at 800 in the morning. We were pretty tired then. Took our stuff and head to our friend's place which i didnt know who back then.lol.but we already did later on.anyways i didnt get any sleep at all because we were too busy making jokes that morning.So later on i took asleep in the bus which i couldnt have much.lol. Finally we arrived in Singapore. The walking part and taking public transport was the most tiring part with carrying our bags and equipments. Finally we arrived at Mountbatten community centre. My first tought was" is this the right place?" because its a community centre filled with kids running around.Then we went up to the hall and i am dead sure this is the place.The first thing i saw was Misery Signals setting up for their soundcehck.I was like whoahh.this is awesome.We went backstage to put our things back there. I was relieved to have something to drink because i was dead thirsty.After we settled in, Hereafter and grace is gone came to prepare for their show.It was the second time i saw them now.Anyways long story short, that evening was amazing. Dick Tracy performed well and had some positive feedbacks from the people there.We even got a poster signed by misery signals.I had the chance to take a picture with them. Singapore was just the best. all the bands like Hereafter,Grace is gone, For better endings and Vermillion had a great set that evening.Cameron of hereafter was the most friendly dude that evening.He came up to us and gave some compliments.lol.As for Misery Signals, I was amazed to watch them performed live. I never tought that i would be sharing the same stage and talking to the guys of misery signals, stuart ross was the most friendliest in misery signals, we chatted for a bit at the backstage.They played a whole set that evening but we only managed to watch 4 songs only as we had to go back to JB. But i managed to catch them back live in KL.All and all it was such a good trip and i really enjoyed it.Kudos to lynn for providing us a place to stay.Rizan and I had the same jokes from JB to KL.it was hilarious like hell.hahaha.kudos to ema and dokna for the photos

The Comeback

2009-03-06T19:47:00.000-08:00

Damn.Its been two weeks or so since my last entry.Life is as usual as it gets.always with the ups and downs.Had my mid term break last week but i didnt do anything much in particular.Last tuesday on 3rd march was Arie's birthday.We did a surprise for him.bought him 20 choc balls for his 2oth birthday.I even got him a card.thats a first time i ever bought anyone a card i think.Well everything was alright that night but the timing was off schedule.We had fun anyways.Yesterday after coming back from Shah Alam we went skating at putrajaya.There's a new skate park there. It's like 90% bowls and pools there but a great place to cruise the deck since im not good at any tricks at all.lol.I even fell at one point and got a red bruise mark on my shoulder plus my legs are aching like hell.Despite all that i still couldnt sleep last night and went skating again at Section 13 skate park this morning by myself.Anyways the good news is that ticket for Misery Signals is now available and im selling it.Dick Tracy is going to be an opening act for Misery Signals in Singapore.Im going there as well since i'll be doing the samples for them.Kudos to Dick Tracy.

some better days

2009-02-20T10:23:00.000-08:00

bruises,wounds,cuts..all the things that i have to endure as ive started a new hobby that i've been meaning to for the last few years.So far im getting the hang of balancing my body on the deck,still learning the basic trick which i cant really get a hang to it.its pretty tiring but kills the time,plus the kids who skate back then started skating again now.Basically this is my daily routine.hahaha.i feel like i'm 15 again.the last time i skate was back when i was in form 2.btw it really hurts when i take a shower.

Insignificant

2009-02-13T09:11:00.000-08:00

Last time everything seemed so different
Everything seemed so carefree as if there existed no problem
Things were much simpler back then.
I never tought things end up this way.
Its a lot different these days
It seems that I'm the only one making the effort
I felt as if ive pushed my effort too much
What ever happened?
Why do i find myself in this kind of situation?
Sometimes i feel like disappearing
or just fade away without a trace

Next in line!

2009-02-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

Misery signals live in Malaysia!29th march 2009..RM40 presale rm 50 door tickets.Get your presales from me.Finally one of the bands that influenced me to be in the hardcore scene is performing here! I am so excited!

Parkway drive live in Malaysia

2009-02-09T01:20:00.000-08:00

This has been one of the best hardcore event that i attended.A lot of people attended the show until the tickets has to be limited to only 700-800 people.Ijam from restraint was the mc for the show.The show kicked off at 2pm with Dead Eyes Glow for the opening band.The next band was up was black territory they put on a good show.The next band after that was Kids On The Move.Good set,good sound and awesome showmanships! They did the usual cover of Have heart's armed with a mind.Apparently they have a new member on bass which Syahmi from SB.The hall was packed with a lot of people and it was getting hot.The next band performing was Incarnation and after that was Asthalin.Deadscore was pretty amazing,even did a cover of xAFBx's trust and believe as usual.Cassandra was pretty awesome.they played new numbers.very technical.I was with Adam from summerstorm arts when Cassandra performed.Later on was Dashown.The final set was Parkway Drive.It was too much of a heat to watch them all through the way so the crowd take turns to see their performances.They did a lot of numbers from the old album killing with a smile until horizons.Boneyard was one of them.Pretty amazing band with killer showmanships.Australian hardcore never fails to deliver.The vocalist Winston even made the crowd mosh.haha he gave the compliment of saying that this is by far the hottest show but the best they played in their SEA tour.f**kin awesome.I even had the chance to talk to one of the guys from resist records.We were talking about loads of australian hc bands like IKTPQ,50 lions,deez nuts and confessions.Apparently he was JJ's roommate.All and all this has been one of the best show ive been to.Ceasefire organized a good and organized event.The show finished off early about 8.30 or 9pm.

waiting for dissapointment

2009-02-06T11:41:00.000-08:00

I've been waiting for a long time.anticipating the day that ptptn would bank in the money for this semester.One morning,a class was cancelled so we went to some restaurant nearby my place in S.alam for breakfast.Later on a friend informed me that the money has already been banked in.I was like wtf!! im so happy.So there i was, starting my car engine and drove off straight away to Esso nearby my place, went to the atm machine, inserted my bank card,key-ed in the pin number and there you go....RM 300.44....i was like........"What the Faaaaaaaaaaark"..i tought its supposed to be 3000++..I told my friends about it,they went to check it straight away..Arab's was lucky..he got 1000+..cwoo got 500+ but bilal on the other hand..hahahha rm 12.00.hahahhah what the hell.so unlucky of him.

I was really pissed off.so i decided to go to bank islam with Mira.I checked the bank statement.my fees costs me 3200 this sem but unisel took 3700 from my account.fuck it!..Mira was unlucky she didnt get her ptptn money.The beacon of hope for students to be happy had crumbled into pieces.hahaha.unisel is really fucked up place when it comes to money.herrm i was dissapointed that day.Goodbye to buying new macbeth shoes, new hoodies, new everything.i have to pay my debts to my mother too.fuckk it!.but to hell with it.im still going to get my new deck soon.btw i checked my bank statement and yes they have deducted the outstanding balance.

Frisky business

2009-02-01T02:17:00.001-08:00

This is one of my favourite number from a hc punk band called daggermouth.This song is dedicated to you mother.I am sorry for all the pain and arguments i have caused you.I've been meaning to say sorry to you but i didnt have the courage to.

I feel like I need to apologise
For all the pain I've caused you guys
I never even tried to make it right
It seems that all we do is fight
Maybe one day this will change, a family again

I was responsible
For your breakdown and all the hospital calls
It's so hard seeing someone that you love
Fall apart before your eyes when you can't help them get back up

So I'm passing this along
To tell you I'm sorry
For everything I've done
Maybe some day I might be able to tell you this
Without having to hide it in the lyrics of a song

I held you in my arms as you cried
Then you looked at me and said Nick I want to die
Well these arn't the words a son's supposed to hear
From his own mother because deep down she thinks I never cared

You were always there for me I know
And I believe you when you say it's hard to let go
Hard to let go of me
Watching me self destruct with such ease
Depression is the cause this sick disease is killing me
Disease is killing me

So let's let by gones be
And no matter what happens I know you'll love me
And that's all I need
So I'm passing this along
To tell you I'm sorry for everything I've done
Maybe some day I might be able to tell you this
Without having to hide it in the lyrics of a song

family gathering to a family feud

2009-02-01T01:48:00.000-08:00

Last night i went to my aunt's place in semenyih for a family gathering due to my cousin's wedding.hermm it was rather distressing as i couldnt find my way to their place.I was with my mom.we got lost for a few times.it was rather depressing for me.i couldnt help it anymore with using profanities.It made me feel like i'm in a deep rage.i know its not neccessary but i just couldnt help it anymore plus i dont even have a day's sleep.Mother weren't really helping with the directions apart from one time instead she nagged at the situation plus my uncle gave us a wrong direction and the place was dark which made me even more depressed.When we arrived i said i didnt want to go out and my mother really did gave me a good smack on the face.Wow! i just couldnt take it anymore, mother got out of the car.I slammed the door and stayed outside besides the car for a while to calm me. I then finally had the courage to go inside but i was disheartened by the look of some uncles when i was greeting them. I went inside and headed straight to the back door of the house, opened the window and calmed myself down.I turned on the tap to wash my face.I couldnt hold the rage back anymore so i broke down in tears.Again i know it doesnt make sense for me to be rage for such stupid reason.The tense and the negative feeling was too much when i was driving.Man, i haven't felt like that or shed in tears for a few years now. That made me feel like i am 15 again.i remember the days when i was a confused teenager angry at my parents.haha how dumb was i.Later on my cousin who just got married that morning came up to me and calmed down.I realised something then, despite of what people been saying about her she is a really nice person. I was calmed down but felt embarrased with other people.So we catched up on old times because its been ages since i saw some of my cousins.When i went back everything was a lot better until i took on a different direction again which made my mother nagged on and on which made me feel stressful again.I didnt mean to react back or answer back but i just couldnt take it anymore.She was becoming more like her mother in law.always complaining here and there about things.when i answered back she was furious.I really didnt like the situation at just one point i just kept quiet.Why does this always happen? i always end up in this situation with mother. I dont mean to hurt her feelings but sometimes i couldnt stand it anymore.Why she couldnt be more like father.Reasonable and just.Well deep down i am sorry that i have caused so much arguments.I dont understand why with my family i am like this but not with friends.

See you next...Tuesday

2009-01-20T12:08:00.000-08:00

Its been a day since i wreck my car.tormenting me thinking about the rm350 repair cost that flew away just like that.Herm well as of the result of last night, i didnt have the mood to go to morning class i even skipped class yesterday,went in just to submit my assignment.Well i did go to class in the afternoon.I had to go back home to puchong today as i have to send my brother and dad to the airport.Apparently they are leaving for the UK.My dad has an outstation work there with one of his clients and so's my brother but he's doing photography there.hermm isnt that cool..i wish i could go and meet my long lost friends there back in York.

Arie sent me home at 6pm. I had to cover the car wreck story from my father otherwise he'll end up being angry so i told him my car had some repairing to do regarding of the windows.haha.I sent them to the airport at 11pm.My brothers going there for nearly a month.So after sending them i head back to puchong with my mom.As i was driving i told my mother of what happend.She said she was going to tell it to my dad and i was like ".aaaa." nvm then.its her decision.So tomorrow i am going to pick up my car at the workshop.

i used to hate cell phones, now i hate car accidents

2009-01-20T11:45:00.001-08:00

Last week was the second week of this new term. Last Sunday was the night i head home to Shah alam. I got a call from louis saying that he and kenet missed the last train to Shah alam. I picked them up at Kl central at midnight, went for a lepak session with them in hakim seksyen 7 and sent kenet home. I was tired but i didnt finish off my assignment yet so i get a hold of myself and did all the work. The next morning i was late to go to my Effective Speaking class, just when i have arrived there my classmates got out."Damn!i shouldve slept longer" as i tought to myself.

Then i reversed my car,stayed on the right side of the lane and i glanced at some of my classmates sitting at the benches of"rumah hijau"(a shed infront of the college carpark). As i was looking, i couldnt help noticing that my car was still moving but very2 slow, as if i was strolling. When i looked back to my windshield, BANG! another kancil hit the left side of my car.arggh! i was frustrated like mad. Everyone was looking like there was a tragedy going on.oooh shit" the words came out of my mouth as i was looking at my front bumper and the left side mudguard.The mudguard was damaged badly and so did the bumper. Hermm. i was so upset i even held my hands on my head. i was speechless. the girl who was a sem 2 art and design student looked at me and said"sori bang,silau.."and i was like"............."nothing to say or do. we parked at the parking lot and settled the matter.one of her friend intervened when i asked the owner about her car having insured.She simply made an assumption of me wanting to claim from her car.I was like wtf! i said.."chill..did you hear that kind of thing coming out of my mouth..dont just jump to conclusions!"So later on few of my friends had a good look of whats going on and try to settle this thing.I settled it there with the owner.

We agreed on paying on our own car. She said that i was staying on the wrong side but i said she was driving carelessly.Well, then she said that the fault was on us.Well..i had to agree partially it was my fault but then again..the fault was more on her.dammit..her car ended up pretty bad even worse than mine.I didnt think it was worth the trouble to go the cops otherwise we'll be charged more.She's still on P" and my license had expired i havnt had time to renew it yet. I mean it'll be a lot harder if we do it the legal way plus the damage wasnt worth it to claim for the insurance.Well, let it be then.

I met uchan and imran and brought them to one of the car workshops to see the damage of my car and how much it would cost to repair it back.Ahh damn its a new car not even a year yet since i bought it and now this shit happens! Later on in the evening we went to TTDI jaya to send my car.Costed me 350 to repair those shit! argggh im so frickin pissed off that day.What a day im having!

Misery Signals in Malaysia

2009-01-17T10:48:00.000-08:00

I cant believe it.One of my favourite band Misery Signals are actually hitting KL in the end of march.Misery Signals is a metalcore band formed in Wisconsin in 2002.Their music is defined by their chugging riffs, odd time breakdowns and melancholic melodies.Check out their music on www.myspace.com/miserysignals

holocaust

2009-01-11T03:56:00.001-08:00

Why does it have to be this way?why does things have to be unfair for these people?does massacre of thousands really satisfy the false idols?the propaganda claims to be fighting against terrorism.It is the Zionist who are the terrorist.Corrupted minds that leads corrupted government. These false idols that lives with their guilty conscience knows that this is a holocaust.

Was this all really worth it? why do these men,women and children had to suffer?All this carnage for your so called revolution?these are the lies that led them to death.this is a neo-colonisme.the zionist are like neo-nazis

New Term

2009-01-09T23:25:00.000-08:00

Its a new semester,new year,new beginnings,whatever.Now the classes started already,this semester classes are boring as ever especially when you have to wake up at 8.00 every single morning to have class at 8.30 til 4.00 most of the days.I got back to my place in Shah Alam last tuesday.Everything seems..quiet i suppose.The first class i had on Wednesday was awesomely boring.the weren't too bad tho.but apparently i missed two classes again.dammit.anyway i had been watching movies in two consecutive nights.I watched yes man with adly,blur and diba on wednesday night and the following night watching bedtime stories with zaid,mira,blur and diba.herrmm it was rather spontaneous because that evening i asked zaid if he wants to check out some macbeth shoes in 27th heaven.Anyway the week ended well tho.it wasnt as bad as i tought it would be

Mistake!

2009-01-05T11:21:00.000-08:00

I logged in my myspace account for just a moment then i noticed i got a new message, i clicked the message icon and guess what did i see?there were two new messages from this guy.the first one said
" ur hot i love the profile pic !!!!!! can we be friends???? im from ny "

i was like wtf!hahahahha is this dude gay
and the second one is a contrary to the first

"disregard that first message dude i thought u were a chick man....that pic looks like a woman .......sorry"

hahahahahha lmao this is fuckin hilarious

New Years Eve

2008-12-31T12:03:00.001-08:00

This morning i woke up at 11 am.I tried so really hard to get up until i could.I head straight to the toilet and took my shower.I resist all pain and took my medication.i feel better today.my fever was going down.the sore throat wasnt as bad.but i still couldnt eat anything.i could barely finish a piece of biscuit.because it hurts my throat everytime i try to swallow something.i went out to a shop later on to buy a can of 100 plus.it sort of hurting my ulcer and my throat too probably because it was ice cold.damn.i cant have anything.later on as i was talking on the phone in my bedroom i notice some red spots on both of my arms.i told my mom about it and she gave me some cash to see the doctor.the doctor told me that i was diagnosed with german measels.i was like wtf! i tought i had measels when i was a child.now i have to keep away from my little sister.anyway that evening i went down to giant to buy something for new year's eve barbeque.I met Papa,Nurul,Bard,Ajiq and Wan there.They was in a bit of surprise seeing me with my red face.haha.i really didnt feel well at all.after all the shopping sessions were done we went to bard's place to prepare some things.i went back home for a short rest and went back out again that night.The barbeque was one and a half hour late but we manage to put things together.the turnout of the crowd was huge.there was like nearly 30-40 people who came or even 50 i'm not really that sure.We saw some fireworks when it strikes 12.Well there it was.The New year.everyone was watching at the fireworks.After the barbeque we had some jamm sessions.we had some bands played like eleven,kids on the move,burnout,kias fansuri,first base and the dearly missed.A lot of jumbled up line ups that night.i suspected the might was not working so i was giving it a check during burnout performances but suqon accidentally pulled the mic and banged my lips.lol i had a cut on my upper lips and it was bleeding.haha.after the jamm session had finished i head back home as i was really too tired to even say goodbye.it was an enjoyable night i could say eventhough i didnt eat the whole day apart from some tiny tidbit foods.2008 has been a memorable year for me.I wish 2009 could bring a new wave of good things to come for me.

End Year Vacation

2008-12-31T11:34:00.000-08:00

My family decided to take a trip to northern states on last Sunday.Actually my dad had a meeting in langkawi so we decided to turn it into a vacation too.We left home somewhere around 9 am in the morning and reached Perlis about 3pm.We crashed at a nearby hotel.I was feeling rather exhausted but couldn't sleep.My tooth was hurting for a few days already.I bet it's because of my wisdom tooth growing.I decided to ignore the pain until i got a fever later on in the evening.It was horrible as it ruined the first day of my vacation.Then to top it off i developed an ulcer and also sore throat.I couldnt sleep well that night as i felt like i was frozen to death.The next day we headed straight to langkawi.I didnt really feel well at all but after i took some medication it can sustain my health for a while.Me,my brother and my dad went for a drive around the island after checking in at the hotel.Well we didnt do anything much tho that day but at night i accompanied my brother to look for some souveniers for his friends.the usual cheaper stuff there like ciggarettes and chocolates.The last day there my brother sent my dad to his meeting and went out with the rest of the family.We went for lunch in the afternoon and then decided to take my little sister to the underwaterworld.She was really excited to see the sea creatures there.There were a lot of weird looking creatures and fishes.We also got round to the see the seals being fed and doing some stunts under the guidance of their trainer.It was really cute.haha.Later on we fetched dad and head straight to the jetty to take the boat back to kuala perlis and head straight home.It was an alright vacation,i partly enjoyed and didnt enjoy it because of my health.why does it have to come at times like these.

Next!

2008-12-25T11:30:00.000-08:00

This t-shirt is pretty awesome.i'll consider buying it

Christmas Eve

2008-12-24T15:30:00.000-08:00

It was 9:00pm when i left home and went straight to Andrew's.He invited me over to one of his christmas eve party.When i arrived there i was welcomed by Jason.Huh,its been awhile since i saw these guys.Jason and Andrew's friends were there too.I was the only Malay,lmao.but there was this one black dude from Uk that i befriended with there.apparently he was some sort of a DJ.Didnt know he was a Muslim till later on.haha.anyways as usual I was the only one who wasnt eating meat,smoking or drinking.They we're all stoked with weeds and alcohols.hermm not my cup of tea.Me,Jason and Andrew were talking about all the crap we've done when we were in school.all those memories those days.We would crash to any movie during school time.We would just go anywhere those days riding Andrew's car.Shit happens tho sometimes but we took it cool.Now Andrew and Jason has progressed a lot in their life.Andrew's a badminton coach and selling books while Jason is in the entertainment industry.I envy them.Jason was kind enough to help me with my label.He said he'd find me places and sponsors.Youre a friend dude!enough said.I left their place at one in the morning and headed to Rishad a nearby mamak stall to meet a few friends.I went to dekwan's place later on to practise with him and papa on acoustic guitars.We left his house at 5 something in the morning.When i started my car,my mother called me on the phone.Herm there i was, being yelled at through the phone.herm that was a bit of a turn off.i couldnt think of any excuses to give.i just kept quiet.Anyway we head down to the mamak stall for a drink.There was one incident happened there.There was this indian family was having a feud there.Glasses shatter on the floor,chairs were flying,tables were upside down.The feud wouldnt end easily.There was this one guy he knocked out this one woman by punching her face till she fell down.He slammed one of the woman onto the front part of his car.We felt really annoyed by the situation.everyone was looking at them.People with different mentality.profanities everywhere.

Finally!

2008-12-22T02:39:00.000-08:00

Omfg!its finally here.the bane zipper hoodie that i ordered from rockabilia last four months.its here already but the bad news is the price went up from $39.90 to $59.90.So it costed me RM269 dammit!but what the hell.ive waited long enough.so i went to pick it up just now at acoustic music shop.awesome!

Bridging Oceans 4 review

2008-12-15T12:36:00.001-08:00

Bridging oceans 4 was held at dejavu club in front of little havana on saturday 13th of december.The show was scheduled to start at 1pm but due to insuffecient crowds the show was postponed to start at 3pm if im not mistaken.The number of crowds were adequate but it was thrilling.The show kicked off with Second Combat.They played three songs that day.Actually most of the bands played three songs.The next band i can't recall what is their name.After that was Burnout, they covered Have heart's lionheart and the unbreakable and played their songs lost control and the place we belong.it wasnt their best performance neither the worse but they we're alright, i enjoyed it tho.Next up was another band that im not really sure of but after that was Deadscore's turn.I felt the intensity in their performance.Jay's pedal was clear and the thumping sounded like a machine gun.They were awesome! even did an intro of Recon-burn this city and covered xAFBx's-Trust and believe, Kudos to them!.After that i went out to the nearby mamak stall for a drink with papa,dekwan and etc.I couldnt believe i've just missed asthalin.damn.right after asthalin i cant remember what band played maybe it was bloody rejects from singapore.next up was Final Attack from indonesia they played a few songs was given longer time because they were international bands if im not mistaken.they were awesome.they did a cover of no warning.I even had a chance to chat and made friends with their new drummer Ikhsan from Bestiality.He was a decent guy quite friendly and he is a huge metal fan.awesome!After final attack was incarnation if im not mistaken.they only played two songs.apparently Azim didnt play the show.they were alright.They just came back on tour with Hereafter in Indonesia.Right after incarnation was Hereafter,an australian metalcore band.the played a few songs.They were quite good tho.After hereafter was Kids on the Move.apparently it was the last show for Jack the bassist.they played three songs,the first one i cant remember i think it was kids who kick,the second one was drop it and the third was a cover from have heart's armed with a mind.spectacular performance!.The last band for the show was A better hope foundation,an american hardcore band.They were not bad at all.i enjoyed their songs.bad news though because of the club management wanted the show to end at 8pm some of the bands did not play the show and lots of band had to cut their slot.xElevenx didnt play the show and same goes to back on track and naratu.sorry for them.couldnt really blame anybody for that.

Got Gamed!

2008-12-14T03:11:00.000-08:00

I had this chick added me up last week and she was gorgeous.first i tought she was fake.herm that i had a fake feeling that it was for real.now i know it was too good to be true.That motherfucker Arie created a myspace profile and he added me up.i just started to chat with "HER" who as actually a him.and today tyra told me it was Arie!arrrgh i was so pissed off! he and all the puchong kids along with my housemates have actually teamed up to play a big prank on me.arggh i'm so gonna get my revenge after this

i just cant wait!

2008-12-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

I have always been a fan of vampire and werewolves mythologies and this movie is one of favourites.Underworld 3: rise of the lycans is the anticipated movie that will come out next month which is in the end of january 2009.i have seen the trailer and yes i am bloody excited about it.for the fans of werewolves and vampire movies this is the movie you shall not miss!

Something for a change

2008-12-05T11:42:00.000-08:00

I'm currently addicted to some music scores.it makes me feel like in a movie.I love Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard's music score on the dark knight.I'm also downloading some LOTR's trilogy score ,300's score and also pirate of the carribean.it gives you some sort of a weird emotion listening to these scores.

old man

2008-12-04T11:27:00.000-08:00

He was a boy who lived up with his pain
the onslaught from his family
they took him for granted
they looked down on him,misjudge him
treat him like he knew nothing.
as if he was ignorant, as if he was daft
but he never looked back in animosity
instead he makes himself as if he was the pits
so he fought his silent war
only armed with a mind instead of fists
in his mind he knew he will have the last laugh
for he will prove them wrong
waiting for the right time to just fly by
time passes by as the boy who knew pain
who knew hardship, who knew courage
changed into a man who has strength,pride, and bold
now he proved them wrong
so teach this son how to be like him, teach him courage,
teach him to gain the willpower as he did,teach him take hatred
and turn it into glory,eventhough he has caused a lot of mortifying acts,
the shame,the humiliation,but there's one promise he keeps in his heart,
to bring pride and intensity back, so he too could prove them wrong,
he too could have strength and boldness.

so old man look at my life, i'm far from being you
old man take a good look at me before you go
i know my words are unworthy and it always brings you to downfall
before you leave this hatred world
just know this, i will bring fire back in your heart

Movie Review: Twilight

2008-12-03T10:33:00.000-08:00

Film:Twilight
Director: Catherine Hardwicke
Casts: Kristen Stewart,Robert Pattinson
Distributor: Summit Entertainment
Running time: 121 minutes
Country:United States
Ratings: 7/10

This is my second film review so far and i have to admit this film is not half bad at all. This film is actually a book adaptation from the author Stephenie Meyer.The film stars Kristen Stewart as Bella Swan who falls in love with a boy from her school, Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen who happens to be a vampire.Unlike the horror or action vampire films, this film has the target for teenagers who are fans of Harry Potter and so on.It also has a touch of action and romance in it which makes it agressive yet touchy.As for the bloke "Edward Cullen" he has made himself a chick magnet, likewise Orlando Bloom before this.Overall its a rather remarkable film.be sure not to miss it if you're a fan of vampire films.

Trial and error

2008-12-02T09:53:00.000-08:00

So this is another trial version of my record label Holdstill record's official logo

Old times

2008-12-02T03:56:00.001-08:00

I was chatting with my long long time friend back in York.Apparently i found him and added him on facebook.i saw his name"Nick Rawcliffe" appeared online so i chat with him

Nik:alright nick

Nick:ello mate

Nik:remember me then nick?

Nick:yeah i think so

Nik:hahah we used to go to school together

Nick:yeah arches rite?? u look well differnet mate from wat i remember

Nik:yeaaa i do..hahaha time change and so did i

Nick:ha true so wat ya do wit yaself

Nik:im currently studying at a local college doing mass communications.playing music for fun

Nick:busy guy, mass communications wats that?

Nik:mass comm. is something regarding with media and broadcasting and also journalisme

Nick:ah i see am wit ya, so where u living at the moment

Nik:im down at my country in Malaysia south east asia region

Nick:course yeah daft of me, how did ya mange 2 find me on here

Nik:well im not quite sure but i think i managed to find my york friends here.i found dan elmes's,joe wilko's and yours

Nick:iam still mates wit them guys when am back in york from uni we hang out an go owt and get wasted ha

Nik:haha cool2 send my regards when u see em

Nick:sure will mate

Nik:man i missed the old days when we were back in school

Nick:yeah they were a rite laugh gd times

Nik:yeaa i know getting lines,detention,taking the mick out of that math teacher cant remember his name

Nick:mr fell

Nik:yea thats the one.it was right laugh in his class

Nick:haha.chaos

Nik:me rob and wilko always got done by him.man i wish i could go back there and hang out with you lots

Nick:u shud man we're all still friends, u know ben jackson??

Nik:yeaa ben.shit man its been years.my bro's going there next week

Nick:i live wit him and james nelson

Nik:hes a got photo job down in oxford.u lot go the same university?

Nick:me ben james, matthew beal remember him all go same uni its in a place called hull not 2 far from york

Nik:i see.hull.yea2.not to far from york.whats wilko and rob shaw been up 2 these days?

Nick:well erm rob is abit of dick these days an ppl dont get on wit him 2 well anymore, wilko works and lives in york

Nik:really wot did he do?i was really close with him last time

Nick:robs changed not same guy really not 2 friendly...joe is still quality though

Nik:yeaa joe's great.wot is rob a townie then these days?ahhaha

Nick:haha oh yeah totally

Nik:townie"havent heard that word in years.hahaha

Nick:i know haha makes me feel 13 again

Nik:yeaaa.hahah.youre 19 now right?

Nick:20.couple days ago.ur still 19 rite?

Nik:are ya?nah2.im 20.but i tought ur in the same year as me?when i came to york

Nick:old men aint we, yeah i was

Nik:i entered year 7 when i was 12.if im not mistaken.so wot yer studying then nick?

Nick:yeah are u in ur 2nd year of uni cos thats wat year am in....iam doin educational studies with psychology

Nik:diploma?

Nick:sorry mate gotta dash just noticed time got football game in 40mins

Nik:oh yea i studied a bit of psychology last semester.haha i hvnt played football since i left yorkok2.ill see you later nice talking to ya

Nick:defo gotta talk more mate i'll look owt 4 ya online mate take care buddy, great talkin 2 ya

Nik:take care too

man i really missed the old days..

Melaka trip

2008-12-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

It was 8:00 am on Sunday morning when my brother gave me a lift to Subang.He was in hurry to catch up with his job in Shah Alam.He dropped me off at ss15.Today i'm sessioning on bass again for Side Circle.I waited there for half an hour for Pyan.When he came we finally took off to Melaka.Stopped for a break in Ayer Keroh then head straight on to Melaka.We arrived there early.apparently the venue for the show was in a studio in a quite a remoted area.That day was very humid.when we got into the studio for soundcheck i had to stand infront of the Stand-up fan to keep me cool.damn.anyways we had our soundcheck and the bass amp sucked because the sound of my bass was very distorted when i put my control volume on full.i had to turn the control knobs on my bass at mid range in order to get a clearer sound.I was hoping the bass amp would be nice like at Lab rat's studio.Before the show started there was this one band who had an argument between themselves because one of the guys came late.So one of them bailed out and they didnt play early.they came later on in the evening.I cant remember what the following band is.but the next band who played was a band called V.They were awesome,even did a cover of metallica's number creeping death, iron maiden's hallowed be thy name and halloween but i didnt remember what the title was.It was amazing.The guitarists were like guitar heroes.they played a few amazing riffs and solo leads.We played after them.It was so boiling inside there.I gave a few showmanships but then felt really tired and my neck was hurting.i dropped my bass during the cover of As blood runs black because i attempted swinging it and then the 3rd string was out of tune.Lol.shit happens.Next up was Dying For Autopsy.I enjoyed their set.good showmanship from them.After the show is done we had some photo sessions.It was great fun but really tiring.That night i flat out in the car.really tired because i havent had enough sleep and didnt eat for the whole day.we checked in at the local hotel.it was adequate.i finally had my shower.felt rather fresh after that.went out for dinner, as usual i had problems eating everywhere,we came back and was flat out.We got back this afternoon and arrived back home this evening.As of now my body is aching.Awesome!

I wonder

2008-11-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

People always say things like"you're like an animal"when others do things that are atrocious and sinfully wrong. But do you ever wonder sometimes that even though animals do not posses the ability to think, they have emotions too.Do you ever wonder why men could do evil and animals could not? Animals could kill other animals but do they posses evil in their hearts? do they keep animosity, jealousy and abhorrence in their hearts? are there any malevolence and malice in their eyes? Why men could do evil, could bury malice in their hearts?

Movie Review:Quarantine

2008-11-27T08:24:00.002-08:00

Film: Quarantine
Director: John Erick Dowdle
Casts: Jeniffer Carpenter, Jay Hernandez, Steve Harris
Distributor: Screen Gems Pictures
Running time: 89 minutes
Country:United States
Ratings: 6/10

A rather outstanding,shocking and thrilling American horror film.This film is the remake of the Spanish horror film REC. I was really impressed with the way that they produce this movie. The technicality was really good.they use like a cam corder camera works,rather shaky but it made an impression as if this film is the actual reality.This film features no music scores,on the contrary it has been scored with sound effects.The film starts off with reporter Angela Vidal( Jeniffer Carpenter) and her cameraman Scott percival(Steve Harris) doing a report on the night shift of Los Angeles's fire department.They are introduced a couple of fire fighters Jake and Fletcher. They received an emergency call from an apartment complex and headed up straight there only to find themselves trapped in the apartment complex sealed off by the government due to a horrible plague from a virus.A rather gore and bloody film but not as gore as Saw or Hostel.There are the usual zombies.Unexpected ending as Angela is being dragged backwards by a zombie.Overall it is a bloody great movie!

its been awhile

2008-11-27T07:54:00.000-08:00

Been ages since i post my last entry.feeling rather ill at the moment.im suffering from slight fever, sore throat,headaches,coughs and flus.i have no appetite today.but good news is that i lost 2 kilos.hooray.anyway ive been busy for that past 2 weeks because of the final exams and its kinda shitty because i have to wear a wig on every day that i have exams.the first day was Agama and i got to the hall late because i have alter my friggin hair.costed me my time.i felt really nervous going into the hall late.one of the invigilator told me off because i had "long hair"..hahaha.i tought she did not notice.damn.then this one invigilator guy came up to me and pulled my "hair"..hahaha he took my matrix card on the reason that ive got long hair.thats dumb.i was like "F*** i got to have a haircut..what a waste of effort doing new matrix card".shortly after that he gave me my card back.i was like wohoo.i accidentally laugh when i was answering the questions on the paper and could not really concentrate.hahaha.well other than i was like a laughing stock to all my friends because i looked pretty dumb and i even had my alter ego called dexter,the nerd side of me.lmao.hahaha.anyway last sunday i went to watch the movie called quarantine alone at sunway pyramid because none of my friends wanted to go with me and what the hell so i go alone.its cool sometimes doing things alone.the movie was pretty decent.unexpected ending.anyways after that i paid the parking.i inserted this particular 50 cent coin and the machine did not accept it only to realise that the coin is fake.hahaha.thats rare.anyway i looked for my car in the parking.pressed the button on my remote and look what happened..my car did not respond.i was like"F***!!"..no wonder why it didnt respond.its because i didnt turn off the lights when i turn off the engine.what the hell!!..i was stuck there for 20 minutes or so.didnt know what i was going to do.i tought i was stranded there luckily this security guard came up and i asked for his help.he and his friend helped me to start my car and yeah it did start.thank god..i was glad..so after that i got back to my place in shah alam.all and all its been a rather stressful but alright week.now im back home at puchong again

the other me

2008-11-15T11:02:00.000-08:00

Dexter
my alter ego

untitled

2008-11-15T10:34:00.000-08:00

Minggu lepas sgt stress.banyak benda tak settle tapi nasib baik dah settle.pagi tadi aku punya la tak tido buat keje last2 kelas batal.sangat fark..subjek pon tak daftar2 lagi.aduiii.sem ni blaja apa pon aku tak tau

back to the school days

2008-11-09T10:29:00.000-08:00

i logged on to my friendster that i havnt acitvated for a very long period and look what i found..

OLD PICTURES OF ME WHEN I WAS IN FORM 4/FORM 5

my old guitar.haha

zaman2 tu gambar sendiri trendy la nak letak nama band fav time tu..haha fuck lah
gambar masa form 4.lokasi depan pintu bilik abg aku.bajet metal.fuck off la poser!hahaha

MYHC fest 2008

2008-11-08T11:46:00.001-08:00

Coming soon!

bagan lalang trip

2008-11-08T11:15:00.001-08:00

Hermm lets see.this week i went for a class trip to bagan lalang.It was alright.was a trip for our photo assignments.we left s.alam at 10 something on Tuesday morning.there werent any seats left for me so i had to sit at the back.damn it hurts my back.so we arrived there about one hour or so later.the accomodation was alright.the beach was a little too muddy.hahaha.so after we settled in had our lunch we took some photos near the beach.in the evening we took some landscape photos until 6.went back to the chalet,had our shower and head straight for the "hall".had barbeque that night.and these guys were really understanding they had prepared me some vegan artificial meats.haha..awesome!so that night after the barbeque we had some activites.had to do an act.they had me playing some songs on the guitar that i never even played before.hahaha.not the same thing i do on stage.so after that we played a bit of a football game and went for a drink near the beach area.went back to the chalet took my shower and had my sleep.the next morning we woke up,had our breakfast and head straight to the beach.awesome!.after that we checked out and ready to set back to shah alam.and f*** it.my ulcers are getting worse cant really eat or talk but i still do anyways.hahaha.

me behind and the retarded kid arie infront

boybands.hahaha

messy room..

baywatch?
mucky beach but beautiful scenery

pictures from genting road trip

2008-11-08T10:46:00.001-08:00

scandal..

this is the what i came to see?

blur jadi hardcore kid.hahaha

do we look the same

kaunter pertanyaan

bajet UK..

konon style

photogewdix"hahahha.fuck lah..

bajet hxc

Pictures! from A Last Minute Plan

2008-11-08T10:27:00.000-08:00

my housemates blur and louis was there too.thanks guys!

sessioning bass for side circle

Me having fun disturbing arie

Man of the match playing guitars in Escape,Vocals for Lost Sinatra and Drums in Burnout!
give it up for dekwan!

kids moshing

pakjun from Dish

The story this week!

2008-11-02T01:53:00.001-07:00

Right after i had a success from my previous show the next day i went to dean's open house in kota kemuning along with fellow friends from puchong.Some friends were there too like Karen, Chacha, Jack,Mazri,Babart.Apparently Karen was selling Cd's for 10 ringgit each.so i bought three cds like horse the band,myproof and driven fear from her, even got myself a new driven fear and vices for virtues tour t shirt.haha.was chatting with karen and dean about how shitty the scene are these days.hahaha.That night i had something spontaneous up in my mind.the car was full so we went up to Genting.hahaha.fuckin mint!.We went to pickup arie's gf sofia.and headed straight to genting.was the car was running on 1st gear when we was riding upwards the hill.hahhaha.we didnt really do anything only took some pictures and walked throught the place.but we felt good because we really needed to get away from the city for awhile.arie had backache when we arrived there and it lasted for two days when we got back.the original plan was to go to PD in the morning.hahha "holiday" but was cancelled due to arie's backache.me and blur didnt want to look gay by going there just by the two of us.hahaha anyway it was never the same if arie didnt go so we went home straight after that.we woke up in the evening went for our dinner and head to cineleisure to watch tropic thunder.after that we fetched louis in selayang and headed back home to Shah Alam.This week i got barred from Agama's examination due to 6 times of absence but the lecturer helped me so i didnt get barred.hhahah.plus something shitty happend to me this week as i got two parking fine by the police!fuck the cops!.im not paying shit!..i even lost my way when i was going to imad's function in desa petaling.arggh i wasted like bucks on toll.wasted my effort,time,petrol and money.dammit!oh yeah currently im selling Incarnation's new album.Udey gave it to me on Friday.His car got hit by two kids on a motorbike when he was going to park his car.he was pissed off because that night he was going back to Kedah.I even had my haircut on thursday.i had it trimmed actually and just a slight cut.and someone was really generous i dont know why he/she slipped a 5 ringgit note on my car's driver window.hahaha.and yeah Khalitzburg's first performance was yesterday and it was rather adequate we just created new songs on the night before.hahaha.last night me and boy hanged out with Aren and Man from DEG after the show at william's in KJ.Imad called me apparently he was in Hospital.Man...i pray for his safety.im afraid he's diagnosed with a serious disease that had stages.

A Last Minute Plan show review

2008-11-02T01:48:00.000-07:00

It was on 25th October last saturday when me and fellow crew from holdstill records/konspirasi entertainment run the show. I woke up very late at 12 pm on the day and had to rush things.i even got lost in Kl trying to find the way to get to one cafe.hahaha.damn!.Anyway i arrived there at 2.30pm.some of the bands like dish,violet was there too.could see some familiar faces too.so i had to wait for the bands to come.anyway the show started at 5pm.wow very late indeed.11 bands performed at the show.the crowd was adequate but the show was fun.First up we had Violet, a new band from Unisel S.alam.I invited them because i wanted to give them a chance playing in one of the shows.They was alright.rather good vocals.The crowd was a bit quiet tho.Second up we had Burnout! a new breed of oldskool hardcore brigade from puchong.this time i could really see the intense in their performance.they did some cover which i was thrilled to sing a long to which were Have Heart's lionheart, the unbreakable and Verse's hard to breathe.fuckin mint!.right after that was Asthalin.we had to change the set list for a bit due to some people wanted to leave early.Wtf! that shit always happen but i still can tolerate it.Asthalin was alright.but tom's second vocals was very distant.i couldnt hear much because the second mic had problems.even the amps were a bit shitty too.hahaha.The next band in line was Starting Fight.as i said we had a change of setlist.emerald was a bit pissed off that time but i talked things through with em.things were settled.Starting fight wasnt half bad they did a cover of CBK's Broadcasting.i even singed along through the lyric" a common threat sits in our house!!".Right after that we had Emerald.I sessioned in this band playing guitars for Nikko who couldnt be there due to him being in Uitm Kedah.Wow we only jammed once and i forgot most of the parts that im supposed to play.hahaha but in the end we covered two of Underoath's old numbers like Angels Below and When the sun sleeps.hahha reminds me of old times when i was playing in Have A Nice Death.The next in line was Prognosis:death.very southern rock.Right after that was Kids On The Move.They had a new number which was really awesome.they played action through action,the blame,drop it and some others.Damn! i really enjoyed them!fuckin A's i even fell down when the kids were two stepping and moshing.Suqon was hyped as fuck!.hahaha.really fun!after that we had Dish they played grunge.they was awesome too.After Dish we had Escape.another awesome newborn hardcore band from puchong who had just released their Demo"see it through"they did a cover of have heart something more than ink!.fuckin A's.during escape i was called by azwan the manager of one cafe.he gave me the profits for the show.fuckin A's!The last two bands were left was Lost Sinatra and Side circle.Lost sinatra wasnt bad.Arie had showmanship!.wow how rare was that.hahaha.after that it was my turn to play bass.Side Circle had an adequate performance.wasnt bad but i fucked up a bit.hahaha.the show went pretty well the kids enjoyed it.I enjoyed it.i was a pretty good wrap up for the day we went to puchong to eat and everything was tabbed under me.it was awesome!i enjoyed it!ill put some pictures on when i get them!

last minute

2008-10-19T21:17:00.000-07:00

yeah i know its very last minute but do come anyways.its this saturday

new logo

2008-10-17T13:50:00.000-07:00

new logo for my label holdstill records.designed it last few days.haha.not sure if i want to use it.anyway we got a show to do this 25th which is on saturday.i'll update it later when it reaches confirmation

Sick of the Week

2008-10-17T12:33:00.000-07:00

This past week i felt really ill.i dont know why but some other people i know too have fallen sick.its like a plague or like a trend.Anyway the start of the week i had to stay at home due to some things to settle with the car.i missed few classes this week.damn.this stupid illness still wont go away its been five days now.im still coughing while writing this blog.so on tuesday i went to class in the afternoon,had my human comm. test.fuck it! i shouldve studied since im slacking bad this sem.i didnt know shit and it was some easy questions.haha.so i took my book hid it under my hoody and head for the toilet read some shit and applied it in my test.hahahha.after that i went home and guess what..The Bitch is still at home..WTF does she thinks our place is?a fuckin hotel or something?oh now she has the right to simply come and go to our place.WTF!! i hate to see her fuckin face.louis la ni..baik sgt..so i told louis to kick her out.but she was too "clever" to get what i was saying.arie had to lock our room.fuck theres no fuckin privacy!!!argggh! she keeps on coming to our place like 5 days a week.what the fuck!! im so fucking pissed off!!.so going back to the story after i went back to my place in shah alam.i head straight to the cc to do my psychology assignment which was scheduled last week.i met ken there.he was asking for my advice to buy his guitar.so i browsed through the net.he said he wanted an epiphone les paul.hermm.i checked out some squiers,ltds and epiphones for him so we went to Bentley music in Kota Damansara, a new branch.holy shit the guitar store is huge.they had selection from Prs,Squiers,Ibanez and many more.nice2.anyway i tested an ibanez for him cant remember which model tho but he didnt liked it.so i picked him up a nice squier telecaster custom.black in finish with humbuckers.wow.not so heavy and not so light something in the middle range.it looks like james root from slipknot's guitar or even John 5 perhaps.he was really satisfied with the choice i made.hermm.i also saw a Guild acoustic guitar.it costed 3k+ and hell yeah it has a nice feel to it.before this i only saw it in magazines.and i saw the guitar i wanted last time which was a jackson rr5.and yeah i checked out the mesa boogie heads again.i cant help it.it was too nice not to check it out.the head costs like rm 11k+ for double rectifier head.argghh when will i own it like faliq does.damn!anyway right after that i went to shah alam to get my guitar and sent ken to sect 7 and head straight to subang for a two band practice.wow very tiring day.plus it was raining after that.my brother called me to switch the car.argh stupid incompetent guy who promises to get the car settled but ended up having me to wait for him for two days.the next day my illness is starting to go on the annoying side.damn coughs and phlegms!..anyway the next day i went to photo comm class and was very quiet indeed not like last week i was rather hyped.haha very contrasting.when i got home the bitch is still there argghh i cant take itt!!what is this a fuckin hotel!!!! get the fuck out!!so i stayed at s.alam from wednesday till friday and on friday night which was last night i went to ajiq's open house.the usual faces some puchong kids and some klang kids.haha hardcore open house.oh yeah its ajiq's birthday today.happy bday bro.may god bless you.stay true.after that i head straight to KL to meet a friend regarding some things.haih was coughing all the way until now.when will i recover.ken's guitar squier telecaster customthe mesa boogie that i wanted!

Wanted

2008-10-12T22:15:00.000-07:00

was browsing through Peta2.com and went to the merch link and found these.awesome!

sing a long

2008-10-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

i cant remember what song was this but i think it was have heart's lionheart.haha

saturday bloody saturday

2008-10-12T00:57:00.000-07:00

I woke up at half past two yesterday.I was too tired to open my eyes because the previous night i went out to damansara with louis.We went to OU and Cineleisure to catch a movie but apparently we were too late because both are closed.damn! what a waste of an effort.so louis ask me to stop by at burger king.as usual i cant have anything there.hahaha.so me and louis went there for an hour or so.after that we went back home to S.alam.damn i was feeling really sleepy so i got home and went to sleep.Adli called me yesterday about 1 pm i was too lazy to answer the phone but i still answer but speak in a tired manner.haha.then i recieve some text messages but i couldnt be bothered.After that rizan called me and asked me when am i going to Arie's house.I was like.."oo yeah..its arie's house today"..hermm so shortly after that i woke up took my shower pack my bags and leave the house.i stopped by at the laundry to send some clothes and head straight back to rizan's place in puchong.Along the way it was raining heavily and made some cars crash causing traffic congestion.so after i have fetched rizan i went to arie's place.when i arrived there.Adly was there with his friend.later on sofia,yana and kuyeh arrived too.i saw arie's mother holding the umbrella fetching sofia.haha..thats rich.anyway me and rizan chill out there for nearly an hour or so after that dekwan called and asked me to go to his place.shortly after that i went to dekwan's place.there was a lot of friends there,some of the BK kids like dekwan,bard,atok,fuad,ajiq,wak and so on.Chacha,Wan and boy was there too.Bard had prepared something that is Vegan edible for me.hahaha.Apparently they were planning to go to arie's house after this.damn i shouldve went to dekwan's first but nvm me and rizan attended his place for two times.hhhahaha.Chacha as usual with his jokes with boboy.I didnt notice but until Chacha said to me"Tgk tu madu tgh berborak.." i was like.hahahahha wtf..rizan and wan kotm was talking to each other like they was wining to each other due to the mutual former relationship.Right after that we went back to dekwan's place for the second time and Papa arrived there.waited for dekwan and bard and head straight to Abg Basid's studio.Me,Boboy,Wan and Chacha had a jamm session after that.hahaha we didnt know what to play.all i know they played a bit of nirvana,greenday,some numbers i didnt know,As i lay dying and myproof.ahahaha.went to the back of the studio after that for a barbeque session.and this time i cant eat everything.hahaha.hanged out there for few hours after that it was Lost Sinatra's jamm session.I cant help to fill in some keyboard lines for them but i am supposed to on this one song.haha..after that it was escape's jamm session.we took some photos after that and head to rishad for a lepak session.

Cuti raya dalam bahasa rojak english dan melayu

2008-10-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

Hermm raya..was a bit on the rush this year.Hermm i didnt feel like raya that much due to some last minute tasks.Last tuesday night me and my brother drove back to our mother's place in Perak.Everything was last minute.I had to help my brother with his client's photo album.we were kind of in a rush.I bought my pair of baju melayu at the Giant in front of my neighbourhood area.hahahha really last minute purchase at 9.30pm and baju melayu pon ambik asal boleh je.hahahah.so after that at 10pm we drove off to "balik kampung"..hermm best ke balik kampung..mcm bosan je..but its been awhile since i got out from KL..so my brother drove up to rawang after that he was too tired to drive as he havnt had enough sleep for two days straight.He nearly blacked out while driving hitting the divider so we stopped at the RnR in Rawang and i took over his place.Hermm was thinking of getting some energy drinks but apparently everything had honey in them.hermm tough being a Vegan but its fine.anyway this is the first time i had to drive long distance..everything went well tho.i sped up until 140km/h until my bro asked me to slow down.i drove until kuala kangsar.oh yeah the funny thing is when i was driving in Ipoh i tought i saw a motorbike coming towards me like it was heading for collision so i swerved to the left and my brother started yelling at me.hahaha.so later on we arrived at my aunts house at 2.30 am.

In the morning we woke up at 9am and rushed to the nearby Mosque.lambat gila pegi smyg raya..hahaha.there i met Amer one of my music friends in puchong.i approached him.he was surprised to see me there.hahaha.gila kecik dunia.tak sangka sama kampung rupanya..after that i went back to my late grandparent's house where my aunt lives there.haihh my first vegan raya.nak makan apa pon tak bolehh....kuih raya ada telur ada dairy product makanan lain ada ayam..apa boleh buat..makan ketupat kosong je la.

gambar raya dgn si budak nakal..

oh yeah apparently when i was packing my bags i found a violin in my cousin's room.hermm was pretty impressed that she could play it.i gave it a go and it sounded like a dead cat.The day after that we drove off to my father's place in Kelantan.lagi boring...dok sana mati keras..hahaha.masuk je kelantan on that day traffic jam tak igt dunia panjang gila.tahan la kau sakit perut selama sejam.As me and my bro arrived there we went straight up to my uncle's place.gilaa..open house.nak makan apa?dok diam saja la..minum air.makan yang mana boleh makan.haha.org tanya apsal tak makan daging.kata allergic.kalau kata vegan jenuh nak explain sbb depa bukan paham sgt.lagi mau kutuk ada la..hahaha.anyway that night i went to meet Arie at his kampung..hahaha.mcm lepak puchong je ada Arie.the following day pergi rumah my grandma.gilaaa bosan.ada family gathering and macam biasa la tak dpt makan sgt.kat sini aku tak rasa comfortable langsung dgn family bapak aku.ada je.muka2 pandangan slack drpd pakcik makcik.haih..mmg agak rasa nak balik rumah la.

org lain makan aku tgk je la...hahaha..

the last day at kelantan which was yesterday me and my brother was supposed to go back after we had our family photo session but the road was really packed with cars.nak ikut jalan tu tak boleh jalan kat sini tak boleh.my uncle ikut jalan terengganu drpd pukul 7 pagi sampai 5 petang terlekat lagi kat sana..gila kau.Hermm and i wasnt really feeling that comfortable staying there.i felt like going home.lots of work to be completed.So nak dipendekkan cerita kami bertolak pukul 9 malam.gila..mmg agak tension la..malam baru nak bertolak.it was no rush and thank god the road is clear!!..we went to terengganu to meet up with my brother's friend.hermm borak pasal camera.aku tak boleh masuk sgt.hahaha.after that we stopped at kerteh tempat yang diorang buat minyak tu.perghh rasa gila futuristic tempat tu.hahaha

tu dia gambar gila august burns red.wahahha.

anyways..after that i fell asleep in the car.my bro drove all the way to teluk cempedak in kuantan to take some beach photos at dawn.6.30 am we arrived there.my bro took some photos there.hermm after that i drived home from kuantan back to KL.

tu dia dok bajet hardcore dok atas batu

Selamat tinggal kawanku

2008-09-28T00:00:00.000-07:00

Takziah kepada keluarga Muhammad Adi Safwan a.k.a Awe yang telah meninggal dunia semalam akibat kemalangan di Raub,Pahang pada 5 petang.Kereta yang dipandu oleh arwah berlanggar dengan Lori.Lori itu merempuh di bahagian pemandu.Arwah mengalami kecederaan yang kritikal.Lehernya patah.Kepalanya terhentak dengan impak yang kuat di stering membuat rangkanya retak.Kaki arwah patah.Arwah meninggal pada jam 6 petang sebelum berbuka puasa.Abangnya cedera parah,kaca masuk ke dalam mata dan muka bercalar2 dan yang paling sedih dia tidak tahu akan kematian adiknya.adiknya yang lain patah dua dua belah kaki.Semalam aku,abang aku dan beberapa kawan bergegas ke Raub dengan membawa kereta dengan kelajuan yang maksimum mencecah 160 km/j untuk sampai ke raub.Sampai2 kami terlihat keluarga arwah berdiri di tepi rumah mayat.Kelihatan muka mereka yang amat sedih sekali.Aku dan rakan2 sempat melihat arwah terbujur di rumah mayat.Mukanya berdarah akibat kemalangan.Aku berasa amat sedih sekali.Last sekali aku jumpa dia tahun lepas masa aku kerja di cheras aku duduk rumah sewa skali dgn dia.lepas tu aku igt masa raya nak jumpa dia tapi tak sempat.aku baru terfikir nak jumpa dia masa raya ni.tapi tak sempat juga.last2 aku jumpa dia dkt rumah mayat dgn keadaan mcmtu.aku rasa amat sedih.haih..awe2 dalam banyak2 kawan aku tak sangka langsung kau yang pergi.aku tak sangka kawan aku yang ceria suka buat lawak banyak yang pergi.aku tak sangka..aku macam tak percaya..abang aku telefon aku lepas bukak puasa pasal kematian kau pon aku tak percaya.aku igt dia main2 rupanya bila aku dgr nada abg aku yang sedih tu aku tau benda tu betul.haih..renungkanlah time kita happy2 gelak2 dgn kawan2 kita tak sedar yang kawan kita sorang ni dah pergi meninggalkan kita.Aku agak tersentak jugak la semalam bila dapat tau yang dia dah meninggal.teringat zaman2 dia bawak aku pegi jalan2 zaman2 dia buat lawak yang agak merapu.Ya Allah,sesungguhnya kau maha berkuasa menghidupkan dan mengambil nyawa.kematian itu tidak dijangka sekali.aku redha dengan pemergian kawanku.semoga arwah ditempatkan dengan golongan2 orang yang beriman.

New Shit!

2008-09-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

So i finally got my new pairs of Macbeth shoes.Yeay it has bane lyrics printed under the sole and its Vegan product bebeh..louis bleh tanyakan kasut ni diperbuat daripada sayur ke sbb tulis vegan product..haha sengal.

Love Story

2008-09-26T09:08:00.000-07:00

I've had this feeling long enough to be kept inside so i dared to ask for his number..

he gave me his number i was so thrilled that day

we we're so happy holding hands together

he looks happy..we were made for each other

he put his head on my shoulder and i felt the blood rushing through my veins..

but in the end all i was left with was sadness again as for he had found a new love

bodoh..manede...aku bukan gay sengal..ni fiction je..tapi mamat louis ni mmg suka buat aku nampak gay sampai org pon takut2 tengok kitorang..

Family Day Out

2008-09-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

haritu lepas kelas bosan gila so aku ikut housemate aku pegi lepak kat playground yg berdekatan dgn rumah kami.jadi inilah visual2 aksi bodoh kami yang dapat dilihat.roboh jugak buaian tu kang..

org tua yg berperangai kanak kanakbudak blur main buaian

aksi bodoh yang cuba dilakukan
nak cuba lagi...yeargh lompatan hardcore

org tua main lompat2

sesi gambaran majalah mangga..
dah arr bosan ah beb..jom balik..

Family

2008-09-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

These are some photos of my housemates.
tgh posing nak pukul arie sorang je slack..haih

louis and ime and arie

Converted

2008-09-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

Well i think veggie is not enough for me so ive converted to being Vegan now.Hermm i'll see how long being a vegan could last..It's a challenge because i'm not able to consume anymore dairy products or eggs so i have to avoid chocolate,milk,coffee,bread and a lot of other things.well2 i have to doa lot of research now.

Tiny Terror

2008-09-21T03:27:00.000-07:00

Name:Tiny Terror
Age: 1+
Ability: Can create such annoying noises and interesting behaviour
likes to annoy everyone with her superloud voice
Tiny terror in rage.
sudden gasps with a happy expression

what are you staring at?

there's the rage again..
running away from mum

climbing those stairs..
into my brother's room..
just because she wants to play the bass..

now she's tired of it..

disaster disaster.

2008-09-21T03:16:00.000-07:00

Well im tired of going to bazaar ramadhan and not able to eat most of the things due to my eating beliefs so today i decided to cook a terrible horrible meal.This "disaster"contains of artificial chicken which is made from tofu and soy proteins, tofu, beancurd, soy sauce, eggs and cheese and the main ingredient is a packet of vegetarian flavoured instant noodle.Yes i know it looks horrible.

Maggi Goreng Veggie
sorry for vegans it contains eggs and cheese.

Back on track

2008-09-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

Hmm been a week since my last post.Anyway life's been alright i guess.I spent the whole week staying back at my place in Shah Alam.Wow..i dont usually do that.Last wednesday i went out to KL with Udey.I fetched him from his place at sunway and we headed straight to kl using federal highway.Damn KL is so packed with cars..arghh i was cursing because the are several roads that leads to BB are closed.We went there at 1.30pm and arrived there in BB at 3pm.It took that long to get into BB.Plus my petrol indicator was blinking.Lucky we found a nearby petrol station.Udey was looking for some Macbeth shoes.Some cool shoes they have because under the sole of some of the shoes there are Bane-Give Blood Lyrics under it and on the sole it says Vegan Product.hahhaha now im looking forward to buy one.Then we went to CK music and JS music.Apparently Udey was looking for some DiMarzio straps the ones with the clip system.I looked at some straps that are interesting.Hermm here they stock DW drums too.That is way cool.Anyway after all that is done we went back to udey's area for a buka puasa session and after that i headed home to S.alam.Well the whole week i spent a lot by going out a lot.Yesterday it was time for Khalitzburg to start jamming again.Man its been months since we practised and yeah we didnt get the chemistry as well as we did last time.It was awesome tho.Some unknown guys came inside to the studio to watch us play.They was impressed by Irwan's beat blasting.

Avatar.

2008-09-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

Hermm i think this is what i'd look like if im a cartoon character
oh yeah and this arie if he's a cartoon character.hhaha.what an uncanny resemblance.

The Story So Far

2008-09-10T01:17:00.000-07:00

Its been days since i post my last entry.So now im going to post a new one.Life is as per normal.Finally after searching for accommodation to rent, me and arie have found our place to stay in Shah Alam.Its somewhere in the new area of Sect.7.Shoplot houses but its alright.At least its clean and cosy, not like the typical "rumah bujang"hahaha.At least we have neat freak housemates and the best part is the toilets are clean again unlike the typical "rumah bujang".But there's one problem tho,apparently our so called "housemate" decided to quit staying there..Damn the guy doesnt have commitment in anything.What lame excuses he provides us.

Yesterday was kinda shitty for me.I was asked by my father to go to his office in USJ1.I arrived there.Paid the parking ticket in one of the machines and displayed it in the car infront of the windscreen.I went up to my dad's office to gave him a copy of my IC and driving license.As soon after i have finished my business with my dad.I went to the car,start the engine and head on to the petrol station to fill up the tank.When i was driving i noticed something on my wiper.A white piece of paper with MPSJ logo on it.I was cursing when i saw that.It was a bloody fine ticket.Shit..apparently i had good faith of paying for the parking but accidentally displayed the back of the ticket not the front of it.For that i am giving away rm80?..Nonsense.im not paying shit..I'll wait for the letter from MPSJ to send me to court.hahaha enough said.

Anyway right after that i went straight to my house in Sect.7 for a quick nap only to find out i couldnt sleep at all at my place.bloody hell i dont know why i feel sleepy in class,in the car when i was driving but not at home!arggh i was annoyed because i havnt slept yet since the night before and was too busy chattering about with arie about how life sometimes are crap.I had class in the evening until half past 6.After that i went down to Sect. 2 to break my fast with fellow friends.Later on that night i took a shower and head straight on to KL to meet up with a friend of mine(something regarding business).Well well..I was bloody sleepy like hell when i was driving and i was always asleep for at least 4 or 5 seconds when i was driving.I couldnt hold out my eyes.I feel like taking a detour at the petrol station but there wasnt any petrol station that i couldt stop to along the federal highway.Damn that was really irratating and dangerous.I could have crashed my car or even worse i could have ended my life.So when i arrived in KL.I headed to the wrong direction and it lead me to some of the places that i dont even know.Damn i hate driving in the KL.I was lost in jalan pahang and end up to sentul and all that crap.I had no sense of direction.So finally i arrived at my destination and went to see my friends for nearly 2 hours.When i was heading back to Shah Alam, I have lost my way again and find myself to be in Cheras.Thank god i know that way to go back home.I filled up my tank at a nearby petrol station and head straight to Shah Alam.But after that when i arrived in bukit jalil highway that was heading to LDP,I stroke bad luck.Shit!! I followed the wrong direction again.I tought it said sri petaling because i wanted to escape the Toll plaza but only to find myself heading to Putrajaya,Cyberjaya and KLIA.Hoorray i was so happy!!!....NOT!!!.Bloody hell the signboard says 25km putrajaya and 33 km KLIA.It was like"Balik Kampung"..the highway is clear and there was only a few car driving. I find myself in the wasting money situation because i was escaping the Rm2.20 toll but end up paying the total amount of rm 7.50 to go back to Shah Alam because of the 4 toll boths i head up to.Damn!!!..it really wasnt worth it.Imagine that Shah Alam-lost in Kl-Cheras-Bukit Jalil-Cyberjaya-Puchong-Shah Alam.What is that?a bloody tour or something?..When i finally got back home my petrol indicator the needle dropped down to E..Damn i was rather pissed off.When i got home, me and arie went out again for a sahur session.After that i went back home,headed straight into the room and sleep..what a night i had.the good news is today my dad bought me a car already.Its not something grand,a kancil but i was thankful tho to him,the ride's comfy tho.I drove it to subang just now when i was having jamming session with side circle.Apparently today we're creating a new number.Something more progressive and i love the Death core ending.hahaha.a lot of techincal elements in the new song.

Last night

2008-09-10T00:11:00.000-07:00

I was bored like hell at home.I browsed through the numbers in my list looking for some friends to hangout with.It was 10pm and i had nothing much to do.So i called Jay and asked him where he was.I asked him wether he wants to go for a jamming session.He agreed immediately and asked me to phone around some other friends and the studio.I called Iqbal and Rolan to ask them if they could join as well and they agreed.Well that was a spontaneous plan.Anyway i rang Meng's studio in section 13 and booked for 12am.After that i took my epi.les paul and put it in my case.I left home about half past ten.I was driving and listening to some IKTPQ's songs to play.When i arrived at Jay's place i hanged out there for like half an hour waiting for Rolan.Apparently when we was leaving jay's place, Rolan couldnt be bothered to take his guitar bag and carried his epiphone with no case.Damn everyone was staring at him.Me,Jay and Iqbal couldnt help laughing and calling him a rockstar.hahaha.So then we headed to section 13 and arrived there like 20 minutes late but what the hell.hahaha.When we got in the studio everyone was setting their equipments.I was balancing the guitar sound between mine and rolan's.Apparently he got a brighter tone because he was using EMG pickups.Damn I couldnt hear shit when i was doing some harmonizing.tried setting everything on the amps and the pedal.So we played most of IKTPQ's number like Say goodbye,When Goodbye Means Forever,Columbian Necktie,Sharks In Your Mouth and Upon A Rivers Sky.hell i didnt know the riffs for columbian necktie and sharks in your mouth i just followed what rolan was playing.We also covered some other numbers like Killswitch Engage's The End of Heartache,As i lay dying's confined.There was also an attempt of playing Job For A Cowboy and The Black Dahlia Murder but it didnt get through.Hahaha.All and all it was great fun tho playing some of the old songs that you havent gotten round to playing it.After that we headed back to Section 7.Chill out and talk about mutual stuff.It was like 4 something we headed to where Rolan was working.We went for a Sahur session and i ordered "Nasi goreng Vegan"hahhaha.After that i was too tired to head home so i decided to stay at their place for a few hours and head back home at 9am.

bleeding

2008-09-08T05:09:00.000-07:00

Is this the death of liberty
Is this the price that life has come to mean
all our friends now enemy
the misery of bleeding

Is it a bird is it a plane,No its....

2008-09-07T09:55:00.000-07:00

Roboblur!

Publish Post

Name:Shuwarie/arie/blur
age: 19
Processor:Pentium Celeron
Speed and memory: 8mb ram
WARNING:MAY CAUSE HUMAN TO LAG IN RUNNING SOME TASKS
OR ASKING QUESTIONS

roboblur was abused in the face for being non user friendly

Roboblur had his haircut.now he looks ultra geeky

Oh look.apparently roboblur is intimidated by his archenemy gaybot
"lets go for a holiday"says gaybot to roboblur.

This is the look on roboblur when he is scared of gaybot.

THE END

Do you feel like going on a holiday?

2008-09-07T09:30:00.001-07:00

Feel bored at home?Feel like you could take a break?Do you like the rainforest?Yes now you can go to the holiday that you always wanted at Taman Negara with

Han Travel Sdn Bhd!yeay..

apparently its owned by this guy Han who plays drums in Escape

(the proud manager of Han Travel Sdn Bhd)

Some of the satisfied customers of Han travel Sdn Bhd

Wan-"I loike it very much.Thank you Han Travel Sdn Bhd"

Arie-"aaaaa....apa?(blur)..."

so thank you again Han for being a good travel agent

Stay Positive

2008-09-07T06:35:00.000-07:00

I dont spend my nights at clubs
I dont consume alcohol at pubs
Instead i'm here for just clean fun
I dont take drugs just for fun
I dont smoke
I dont take coke(cocain)
I dont do bong
I only take part in a sing a long
So dont criticise me
I am human just like you
So dont you judge me
because ive got better things to do
It's how i live
I just want to stay positive