Thursday, November 26, 2009

Letters to god

caught off guard
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take this one lifetime

i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go


I'm sinking lower than i would ever imagine
trying to hold on to what's left of what i believe
I tried to seek salvation
Instead I drown in my own pool of confusion
So grab my hands now and lead me out
before i fall even further into this depth of failure
Please God help me,
Cause I don't know what happened
or what I've become.
All i know is that I'm sinking
into this sea of misery.
No more trusting, just forgiving.

Rites of spring

I was locked all day in the summer heat
In a small brown house in Suburban Street
With a skateboard and my shit guitar
I'd dream all day that they would get me far
The summers gone, the years have passed
My friends have changed, a few did last
The smallest dreams got pushed aside
The largest ones that changed my life

If I had a chance for another try
I wouldn’t change a thing
It's made me all of who I am inside
And if I could thank god
That I am here, and that I am alive
And everyday I wake
I tell myself a little harmless lie
The whole wide world is mine

Random Thoughts

Herm..what can i many things have happened.time flies by so fast and its nearly the end of the year now. I could see that my life is somewhat making a turn now. things have gotten worse these days hell i dont even know what to say or do anymore. It seems like the ride im taking in my life now is crashing down real bad. Sometimes i give up hope and feel like disappearing but somehow i still feel that this i gotta face this shit. I guess this is life whether i like it or not i have to face it alone.