Well today's the last day for 2009.i figured i write something about what i go through this year be it good or bad times.Overall i could say that 2009 has been an alright year but it has a bitter end.
in 2009
I met tonnes of bands like misery signals,parkway drive, have heart,etc
I had a car accident in my campus
I learned a lot of new things
I started to fall apart with my friends
I developed a minor split personality
I started a new project band
I had many bruises because of skateboarding
I had a stitched chin
I lost my guitar at the have heart show
I bought a new guitar
I thought i had found love, instead i was heartbroken
I made new friends
I made a new extended family member.
I started flunking in my studies
I started to sink further than i was before
I started losing myself in ways that i could imagine
I accidentally ran over a cat.
I started to fall out with a friend who i was friends with for nearly 7 years now
I started to look more ill
I started to suffer from my own depression
I started to think that im losing it
I started to lose trust in people
I reconnected with some people in the past
I thought about death a lot
I argued again with my Dad
I feel leftout hanging out with the usual guys
I'm patching things up with the family.
so im moving on from 2009 but ill savor the good memories.hello 2010, i wish you treat me well this year.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Letters to god
caught off guard
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take this one lifetime
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go
all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
let me go
i'm not done
i swear i'll take this one lifetime
i won't lie
i won't sin
maybe i don't wanna go
can't you wait
maybe i don't wanna go
Falling
I'm sinking lower than i would ever imagine
trying to hold on to what's left of what i believe
I tried to seek salvation
Instead I drown in my own pool of confusion
So grab my hands now and lead me out
before i fall even further into this depth of failure
Please God help me,
Cause I don't know what happened
or what I've become.
All i know is that I'm sinking
into this sea of misery.
No more trusting, just forgiving.
trying to hold on to what's left of what i believe
I tried to seek salvation
Instead I drown in my own pool of confusion
So grab my hands now and lead me out
before i fall even further into this depth of failure
Please God help me,
Cause I don't know what happened
or what I've become.
All i know is that I'm sinking
into this sea of misery.
No more trusting, just forgiving.
Rites of spring
I was locked all day in the summer heat
In a small brown house in Suburban Street
With a skateboard and my shit guitar
I'd dream all day that they would get me far
The summers gone, the years have passed
My friends have changed, a few did last
The smallest dreams got pushed aside
The largest ones that changed my life
If I had a chance for another try
I wouldn’t change a thing
It's made me all of who I am inside
And if I could thank god
That I am here, and that I am alive
And everyday I wake
I tell myself a little harmless lie
The whole wide world is mine
In a small brown house in Suburban Street
With a skateboard and my shit guitar
I'd dream all day that they would get me far
The summers gone, the years have passed
My friends have changed, a few did last
The smallest dreams got pushed aside
The largest ones that changed my life
If I had a chance for another try
I wouldn’t change a thing
It's made me all of who I am inside
And if I could thank god
That I am here, and that I am alive
And everyday I wake
I tell myself a little harmless lie
The whole wide world is mine
Random Thoughts
Herm..what can i say.so many things have happened.time flies by so fast and its nearly the end of the year now. I could see that my life is somewhat making a turn now. things have gotten worse these days hell i dont even know what to say or do anymore. It seems like the ride im taking in my life now is crashing down real bad. Sometimes i give up hope and feel like disappearing but somehow i still feel that this i gotta face this shit. I guess this is life whether i like it or not i have to face it alone.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
a great way to end the week
its been so ages since my last entry,herm... what can i say.probably ive grown tired of writing things that occurs in my life but since this week was something special i thought id write something.let's see on 9/9/9 i accidentally drove over a cat which i didn't know apparently to be under my tyre.I feel seriously guilty :( not only because i love animals but i also i was shocked due to that incident. i wanted to bury it but it was gone when i came back from class.i am seriously sorry.i wish i could turn back the time.
The next day, everything was going well, i finally went for a fast-breaking session with ex house mate Louis and sent him home back to his brother's house. That night, i waited for the guys to message me for the new band rehearsals.but i guess it was canceled since no one responded.Argh! damn phone credits.so i decided to go skating since Arie messaged me. Its been really ages since we skate at the park. Met up with a few friends at the park and just decided to skate for hours until a tragedy happens. As i was sliding down from the cement platform into the bowl i collided with another dude in resulting to a serious bail. my deck collided with the Bunkface dude's deck and i was thrown off hitting my chin on the ground and grazing it on the cement.As i opened my eyes to this unbearable pain, i noticed that blood was gushing out my face dripping to the ground.I spat to see if it were my lips but only saliva that came out.then i heard someone saying that my chin was ripped.The dude who i collided with apologized and brought me to aid.he offered water to drink and to wash the blood, so i did. i took of my shirt and head straight to the clinic. Arie rushed me to the nearby clinic with some friends.i had a face towel that i wrapped on the bottom part of my face to stop more blood from coming out. as i came in few complications happened, the doctor said that my wounds were deep.so we rushed to the hospital in Klang. We went in and waited for hours since its a government hospital.how effecient.lol. It was finally my turn, i went in told the doctor what happened.she purposedly stuck her finger in my wound to see how deep it was.i was in agonizing pain.F***!.blood was dripping out i took the towel and dabbed it.so i went for an X ray check to see if my jaws were dislocated.Thank god it wasnt. I then got a few injections on my body before the procedure.Later on i was sent to this surgery department to sew my chin.i even managed to take few pictures during my surgery.lol.it was gory.they had given me few local anaesthetics( i dont know how to spell this) injections on my chin.goddamn it was painful.they sew my chin and i felt as if i was an experiment to them or Frankenstein even.haha.i bared the pain for a moment. this is the first time ive gotten such injury.after all that was done. we went back skating at the park :P.my jaws were pretty swollen so its kinda hard to bite or chew on foods but thank god im still alive :) this is the kind of thing you never expected to happen one week before Eid festival.lol. ill upload some pictures when i transfer it from my mobile.
The next day, everything was going well, i finally went for a fast-breaking session with ex house mate Louis and sent him home back to his brother's house. That night, i waited for the guys to message me for the new band rehearsals.but i guess it was canceled since no one responded.Argh! damn phone credits.so i decided to go skating since Arie messaged me. Its been really ages since we skate at the park. Met up with a few friends at the park and just decided to skate for hours until a tragedy happens. As i was sliding down from the cement platform into the bowl i collided with another dude in resulting to a serious bail. my deck collided with the Bunkface dude's deck and i was thrown off hitting my chin on the ground and grazing it on the cement.As i opened my eyes to this unbearable pain, i noticed that blood was gushing out my face dripping to the ground.I spat to see if it were my lips but only saliva that came out.then i heard someone saying that my chin was ripped.The dude who i collided with apologized and brought me to aid.he offered water to drink and to wash the blood, so i did. i took of my shirt and head straight to the clinic. Arie rushed me to the nearby clinic with some friends.i had a face towel that i wrapped on the bottom part of my face to stop more blood from coming out. as i came in few complications happened, the doctor said that my wounds were deep.so we rushed to the hospital in Klang. We went in and waited for hours since its a government hospital.how effecient.lol. It was finally my turn, i went in told the doctor what happened.she purposedly stuck her finger in my wound to see how deep it was.i was in agonizing pain.F***!.blood was dripping out i took the towel and dabbed it.so i went for an X ray check to see if my jaws were dislocated.Thank god it wasnt. I then got a few injections on my body before the procedure.Later on i was sent to this surgery department to sew my chin.i even managed to take few pictures during my surgery.lol.it was gory.they had given me few local anaesthetics( i dont know how to spell this) injections on my chin.goddamn it was painful.they sew my chin and i felt as if i was an experiment to them or Frankenstein even.haha.i bared the pain for a moment. this is the first time ive gotten such injury.after all that was done. we went back skating at the park :P.my jaws were pretty swollen so its kinda hard to bite or chew on foods but thank god im still alive :) this is the kind of thing you never expected to happen one week before Eid festival.lol. ill upload some pictures when i transfer it from my mobile.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Empty
I seriously have nothing to talk about these days.lol.it's not that i've been doing nothing its just that im not bothered to write much these days.well,hope the mood will all come again soon :)
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